Blog #1

Ok, so this feels really weird. I used to blog EVERY day, and having not done it for probably about a year...well, I feel a little rusty. I guess my big reason for stopping my previous blog was that 1. The site that I was on wasn't going anywhere, there were a lot of young kids on there....it just didn't fit, minus a few loyal readers. But, since most of those people were on myspace or facebook, I figured why bother. But reason #2, the fact that I felt like for a lot of people who only knew me over the internet, how boring was it to read about my day to day life after I had my now nearly 3 yr old son. I hate boring blogs, I didn't want to be one.

Alas, now and again I miss it. I like to vent. I started venting on Myspace- about national events, or doing updates on my son for my family/friends...but then it felt a little too OUT there. I mean, I didn't necessarily want everyone I went to HS with reading things or then I ran into now & again if I was having an issue with a friend, I couldn't blog about it and get any honest opinions. Blogger though...only a few friends are on here, and a few old online friends...much more secluded. I like it. I miss writing. And hey, if it's boring, well, I can stop again. We'll see how it goes. Personally enjoy reading my friends blogs...so I figure keeping one of my own would be nice for them as well. More than one person has reqested I start up again, so here goes.

Hmm, how to start though?

There isn't much to catch people up on...DJ is going to be 3 in September. I still have to figure out what we will do for his birthday. Man, some days it feels like time flies, but others it drags. Does that make any sense? It's so cool to see him growing up, he was behind in his talking this time last year, and probably still is slightly, but he's just a chatterbox now! He's still shy when we are out and about, but hopefully that will change in time. He'll be starting 3 yr old preschool in the fall, and I'm nervous & excited for that. Nervous because I know he'll have a little of a hard time adjusting, but excited because he's just going to explode into his own person even more. Nervous because I have to start potty training- soon! At least he is finally showing signs of being ready or close to it. Excited, because it will give me 3 days with a free morning, I know, a little selfish, but it will be a nice break & chance to get things done, or relax when I need to.

So of course ever since DJ was a year old people were asking us when we were going to have another one. Honestly, for at least the first 18 months, we were NOT going to. It was probably partly us as new parents, but man, those baby years are TOUGH. But now that he's older and a little more self-sufficient, the timing is much more right for us. I think it will work out well, they may not be super close in age, but...you have to do what is right for you. Honestly, I wonder some days when I see my friends with two kids, how to they do it?! I know it's probably like when DJ was little, those first 18 months or so are hard. I guess if it doesn't kill me, it will make me stronger, right?! Ahhh, I miss the baby years, but at other times I don't at all. I think I am much more of a person who enjoys that toddler stage- young & older toddlers. When you can talk with them and play games etc. I am actually surprised, my sister has a 6 week old now, and I thought it would really make me want another baby...it kind of did, but not a whole lot. I guess seeing her house and how tired she gets and a baby who never wants to be put down....it brings back those hard memories. I suppose I can never look at the new baby years the same again, once I know what really goes into them. So, I have a Dr. appointment on Friday. I will report in to all of you how it goes. I'm nervous & excited.

As for the rest of life, Dave still loves his job. He works for a fantastic entity. The perks and the benefits are something to be SO thankful here. If he had stayed where he was at in the auto industry, I def. would no longer be a stay at home mom. And sadly, I don't think I am cut out for working and managing a family, at least not till DJ is older. Our marriage...still the same I guess. Having DJ has defintely changed things- we just don't have as much time together any more to sit & talk or go to a movie. Mostly, I feel bad about the not talking quite as much, I mean, don't get me wrong, we talk daily and all that...but we're constantly interrupted by a two year old. Dinner time, well, he tries to talk to me, but honestly I get more pissed than anything because I can't concentrate when I have to help DJ eat and he's fighting with me etc. And before bed, well, I'm normally exhausted (again, how do working moms do it?!) and DJ doesn't need as much sleep as he used to, so bedtime has went from 8 to nearly 930 or 10! I know I should move it up...but getting to sleep in until 8 or 830 on good days is SO nice. But ya...sometimes I wonder if we should try and put a little more effort into things. I just think now & again that although everything is pretty peachy...I don't want to be one of those people who wake up 5 yrs from now and we don't have an US. We do now, and we get along very well, actually probably better than before DJ. But I think part of the less arguing is because we are too tired to argue, or don't have the time to...then again, maybe we are more mature. Maybe I'm not giving us enough credit. I admit, I am so jealous of people who have grandparents who take the kids over night, and the parents get a full night, or they get a little mini vacation without kids. MAN, that would be so nice!! To be fair though, I don't know how DJ would do, he doesn't sleep well away from home and has never not slept in the same house as us. Maybe before we have #2 we can convince my parents to take DJ and we could have one night. I think it would be 1. totally awesome & 2. a nice way to get a refresher. Just to get a little closer. I know, they say you've got to actively work on your marriage and all that to keep it close...I guess I should do that, esp. before our lives get any crazier than they already are!!

Ok, well, I'm off. I started watching High Fidelity yesterday and should finish. Such a fun movie! I'll try to be good about updating this.