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I was upset this morning. I'm sure some of it has to do with being pregnant and emotions being magnified....but I don't know, I think some of it is legitimate. So, I found out my brother has a GF. Through Facebook! He's *never* (minus one crush he's had) told me when he has had a GF, I guess he's just private. But, you know, I don't want details, I'd just like to be included in his life, you know? And then, when I text my sister to tell her, as her and I have been speculating on his for a month or so, she texts back that she knows and that he was the topic of conversation at dinner. Ok...I'm over at my parents the next day and say, hey, heard you were at dinner with R. last night- no, not out to dinner, they were invited over. Ok....talk to my sister this morning and turns out my aunt & uncle and parents were all over there... I guess my issue is that I feel out of the loop. Not upset that we weren't invited, because I know how it is to have to have a ton of people over (I'd been talking about having this same aunt & uncle over for a while, just trying to find a date everyone could agree on), but just that #1 my mom and dad were mum about it to me- they didn't say my aunt & uncle were there! AND I saw my parents the day before and they didn't mention the plans. I guess they didn't want to hurt my feelings...but I guess I just feel like I don't know half the time what is going on in my family! Does that make any sense? I think that in my sisters case she didn't want to mention it because she thought we might be upset not to be included, but honestly I just feel weird being in the dark about it. Especially since this same thing has happened before. It's like it's a national secret!

With my brother...I don't even know what to say. I guess whatever. I am really trying to remember lately that he's young (27) and has friends and a GF. That's why I rarely hear from him or see him. I went through that in my late teens/early 20's. But come on, he can't even reply to an email in a weeks time? I know we are in different places since I am married with a child, but that doesn't mean I don't want to hang out now & again. He works a mile from my house, there's lunch, I often invite him for dinner...throw me a bone here! Who doesn't have time to reply to an email within a few days? (Besides I know his work is pretty slow so there's lots of time at work!)

I am probably just over-sensative, I usually am. I would just rather people communicate with me than to keep me in the dark for whatever reason.

And with friends, I feel like I am the only person making the effort to get together MOST of the time. It is so annoying. Luckily, I found an awesome mom's group last year and have made a lot of new friends through that, who honestly are better friends than some of the people I've been friends with for 5 or 10 years. Who actually keep in touch via email, phone, we get together etc. With the kids, without etc. It's funny that those friends are no less busy than my old friends, but that they make an effort. That's all it takes, a little effort. Ugh. This is turning into a vent now. Sadly, I've blogged about this for YEARS. And for the most part I've let it go. I don't make much of an effort any more. I don't have people over like I used to. It's just a bummer. There's a particular friend of ours that has totally stopped being a friend, we used to hang out pretty often, talk online, email etc. Again, he's a little younger & seems to be going through a stage where he's sowing his oats, but it doesn't hurt my feelings any less. Why were you my friend in the first place if you only wanted to be my friend before I had a kid, or before I don't know what happened! Honestly, I feel like emailing and asking WHY. He's non-confrontational, but I'd rather he be honest and say, hey, you and Dave are lame now! LOL Be honest, don't leave us wondering.

Ok, I'd better make some dinner. This stuff isn't bothering my like it was this morning after I talked to my sis, but I wanted to vent here, it's why I started blogging again. And maybe someone can tell me if I'm nuts...maybe I need to realize my brother is grown up and that's that. He doesn't want to share his life with us right now. ??